when i started this blog, i was in a period of transition. i guess that's sort of a stupid thing to say because aren't we all always in transition? but i think this was even more significant than most times; between 2nd and 3rd years of medical school making the transition from the classroom to the wards; between living by myself and having a roommate again; and little did i know, from being single to being wholly involved again.

don't worry, that last one definitely took me by surprise too.

i can't really explain how everything happened and be able to sleep at all tonight but suffice it to say that my current relationship is due mostly to two things: prometric testing centers and wilco. oh, and probably alcohol to some extent, but really not as much as one would think. and despite all the cursing and vowing and pain suffering that occurred this time last year, i am back together again with the love of my life.

am i crazy!???! do i have incredible long term memory problems that help me forget the depth and the acuity of pain i felt at his hands at this time last year? well, yes and no. what i've learned is that people can change, we can all learn lessons and it's good not to make ultimatums in life.

but i must say, 3 months into round 2 with my ground tuber, it is an interesting anniversary of sorts to recognize this past weekend. to think about how much has changed and how much i've learned since this very same weekend last year is pretty astounding. and you know what, i can remember the pain that i felt when all this went down last year and while i would never wish for it to happen again, i do feel that the lessons i learned and the person i have become because of it has somehow made it all worth it. i'm not going to speculate on what life would be like had it not happened, but it did, we've moved on, we've created something better, and for that, i am so eternally happy.

sometimes, life surprises you and makes you glad you're alive. thank you life