trust me, i'm a doctor

it is quite literally the middle of the night and i have rediscovered and rekindled my interest in blogging. not because i have grand illusions that there is an audience out there for these words but more because i think it's good to have an outlet for expression. i never started keeping a journal until i was in college and i sometimes regret not having written accounts of my years prior to that. i've been too busy and too lazy to keep up with my actual journal so writing on this blog every once in awhile is better than nothing.

so here's a quick update on my life since last i wrote. i ran another marathon. i graduated from medical school. i sold my house. i got married. i went on a honeymoon. i moved to madison. i started my residency. really, that's a quick update since may. before that, i was mostly just finishing up medical school, figuring out where i was going for residency, traveled to india to work in the himalayas for a month...not that much really.

in the end, i'm here, in madison, wisconsin. i live in a really cute house that we're renting that has a huge backyard, a sweet back porch and a two car garage. and two walk-in closets. our puppy has grown in to a dog. a real life, quasi well behaved dog. she's incredible and one of the best things in the world to come home to. full body wag, mouth full of blanky and no matter how sleepy she is, pure joy that you have comehome. scruples is still scruples, yelling and screaming and carrying on if she hasn't been appropriately fed at the correct times. and tater, well he's mine now. we've been married for nearly two months now and things are going great. he's so sweet and so wonderful and has been doing everything in his power to make the transition to residency easier for me. this next month will certainly be a big challenge though, since i'll be on nights and not be able to see him much.

i've been thinking these last few hours as it's been slow once again about friendships. how, really they are extremely transient. one of the frisbee folks we met when we first moved to madison is sweet, thoughtful, athletic, kind, funny and social. we've hung out for her a couple of times, she's pet-sat for us and she's exactly the kind of person who i want to be my friend. and, sort of, she is. but she's moving in two weeks. to arizona. that's crazy! so we've cultivated this kind of strange, semi-relationship but it feels difficult to commit to a friendship when she's going to be leaving out lives so quickly.

i was writing thank you cards today to a bunch of our rochester friends from the wedding. they were actually fun to write as it made me think back on our wedding and all the awesome people were there. but i also am very aware of the fact that although i've been gone for a month and a half, i've already done a poor job of keeping in touch. i haven't sent very many personal emails. i didn't go back for the wedding there. i just haven't been able to muster the energy it takes to stay in touch.

so why is that? as people, are we so focused on instant gratification and our immediate surroundings that we are unable to put the effort in to cultivating relationships with people from afar? or is it just me?

it makes me sad to think that people who were so important to me just two months ago could fall out of my life so easily. but i guess it's not altogether a sad thing, since it's really just another part of the great circle of life.

things in madison are great. i love what i'm doing, even though i masochistically would like to be busier than i am. people i'm meeting are wonderful. the house and the neighborhood are awesome. i'm still able to exercise at least 4-5 times a week. seriously, this whole residency thing, really not that bad.